i've been using the same formulas to coordinate my life. not that it was coordinated anyway.. pfft.

i've been stuck in the same cycle. not that i need to break it, but abandon it for a new one. i've been bathing myself in entertainment and distractions... well, that's not the real problem. i think that's covering for what's underneath. you've been neglecting the fact that you have no purpose for yourself; therefore, no concern for the future. ahh, yea. so that's what's happening here. and you need to stop leaving suicide as an always available exit. there are things i want to get done. so until then, keep that out of my pool.

this is going to change. i'll need you to. and i'll need you to have to.